I Mostly Have Red Pills
(Taio Cruz - Break Your Heart)

I've been catching up on tv shows lately. Here are the list of shows I've managed to watch in the last 4 weeks.

Dexter (season 4) - If you haven't seen this show yet...you're DEAD TO ME!! I mean seriously. This has got to be the best drama on TV, bar none.

Modern Family (season 1) - Some have said it's like Arrested Development meets the Office. It's a little more like the Office in the type of humour and the way they shoot it, but minus the annoying lead character (Michael Scott/Steve Carell).

How I Met Your Mother (seasons 1-4) - A little like Friends but with better characters. I mean characters that have a bit more depth. Neil Patrick Harris steals the show though. Talk about revitalizing your career.

Next up for me is True Blood (seasons 1-2). I've heard good things. Anyone a big fan of this show?

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So I've told you about my transformation over the years from being an introvert to an extrovert. I've set out bit by bit each year to conquer my fears of human interaction. However, not all changes come without some sort of consequence/side effect. The side effect of my transformation is that although talking to people no longer makes me cringe, I sometimes make them cringe with the things that come out of my mouth. You see, when you've spent your entire life talking primarily with your "inner voice" and you attempt to vocalize that, you forget that the inner voice has no filter. So I have a hard time not saying the first thing that comes to my head. I'm trying though, really.

Now the other thing I haven't been adapting well to is that with regular human interaction, you have to deal with a lot of people who are very emotional. The filterless voice in me really wants to say moody emotion whores but let's sugarcoat this for those who can't swallow the red pill. People who are easily excited, saddened, angered, etc. Generally people who are not afraid to show how they feel.

I can't coexist with these types of people. At least not right now.

My flaw is that I lack a filter and can be insensitive at times. Their flaw is that they take everything people say literally and need to act out their emotions to make everyone else feel awkward. Sorry...filter on! Their flaw is that they can't hide their emotions and are easily hurt by what others say or do. It's like mixing gas and fire.

Now I'm obviously an evolving human being and I want to be able to handle emotional people a little better but these are the early stages of my evolution. If you can't handle a bit of brutal honesty with a lot of sarcasm, then you're DEAD TO ME!!...haha....jk. Seriously though, you always have a choice of whether you want to tolerate someone's behaviour but it's not always your choice whether they are going to change to accommodate your feelings or not.

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So what's the next thing I'm going to try to conquer? I'm going to try to talk to random strangers more often. Just thinking about it gives me the heebeegeebees.